06.30.09
pills.....be gone!
Just had a few days away with lots of friends & some I didn't know well.
I was stressing big time before I went with the concentrated people interaction & ALL the food. I can cover up for 1 or 2 meals, but 3 days was gonna be hard. But as usual the reality is never as bad as I imagined. Had little bits each meal just to make use of the opportunity to have some more victory over ED..yes it definitely wasn't easy, but coped ok till the 2nd night. I wanted to enjoy the 'special' dinner, but I also felt pressured with the ones sitting with me, AND didn't want to highlight my ED so I ate half of the meal & some of the sweets.....after, i decided to 'enjoy' the moment & I ate some chocolates & nuts "because I could!" - not so!! 1am I was in the toilet trying to get rid of the choc's & the guilt - great!!
The good thing about it was I decided that was the last straw & I've had enough. I cannot keep reacting this way to the smallest meal or the odd treats. Everyone else seemed to really enjoy the meal, so why not me??
The next day I finally did it - handed over all the pills i had with me (lax & metabolism/caffeine tabs) to my friend who has been suggesting i get rid of them for the last few months, but i couldn't then.
So far so good!!
